Su-Jen's Interview:
How did you feel when you first met Lee Kung?
I didn't understand why, but I felt shy in front of this good-looking man who was my brother.
How did you feel after seeing what your mother and Lee Kung did?
Whenever I looked at someone in my family, I was filled with shame. Icarried a terrible secret that I could never tell anyone.
How did you feel after Charlotte's death?
II hated Miss Skinner for punishing us he way she did. I told myself that if it weren't for her, none of this would have happened. But deep down I knew that wasn't true, that it was my fault. I was the one who wanted to go to the lake and I was the one with the curse. If it weren't for me, Charlotte would still be alive.
What first went into your mind when you found out your mother was pregnant?
He knew about my mother and Lee-Kung: what else did he know? I worried about what might happen to my mother.
How did you feel when you saw your mother breast feed your baby brother Daniel?
I watched my brother curled in my mother's arms and I began to understand how much she loved us and how much she had sacrificed when she arrived in Canada; what she meant when she claimed her life had been over when the moment she stepped off the plane. For my mother the act of living here was in itself an act of love, my mother had given up her own life out of love for me and would do the same for Daniel.
Su-Jen's Mother
How did you feel about Canada when you first arrived?
It's so quiet here. So few people on the street compared to Hong Kong.
What did you tell Su-Jen about your marriage with her father?
I had no choice but to marry your father. It was after the war and i had lost everything. I've never told you this, but before you were born i was married to someone else and I had a son. My husband died during the war and we were left alone. I needed your father to help me raise him, and yor father, he wanted a son for himself.
How was your life back in China before the war?
Back in China, before the war when I was young, people were always telling me how lucky I was. I was the most beautiful girl in the village, probably the county. My father, he said to me many times, if i declared my daughter the third most beautiful girl in the village, no one would dare claim second, much less first spot. I was betrothed when I was three. My father was a herbalist and he arranged a marriage into a very wealthy family. Before I was married, the wedding cakes and biscuits that were sent to the village were the best we had ever seen, and beautifully wrapped in red paper with gold lettering. I gave them out to every family in the village, I had so many. We killed a hundred pigs for roasting and there was a tree-day celebration before I went to Nanking to be married. I was only sixteen. A few months later, just before the Japanese invaded the city, I visited my sister in Canton.Everyone said that I was lucky to have been away, but they were wrong. Those hateful Japanese, they burned down my house and killed my husband. They destroyed the city. Because of them I ended up a poor woman with no husband, and no home to return to. When I discovered that I was going to have a baby, I had no choice but to stay with my sister and her family, but after she died, her husband saw me and my baby son a little more than beggars. Even the jewellery I was wearing, I to sell.